Letting Go of the Need to Push
Letting Go of the Need to Push
On the new moon in Cancer—a rose between two thorns
Hi, I’m Kaitlyn 👋
If you’re new here, I write about real life through the lens of astrology. My goal is to help as many people as possible learn to love themselves for who they are—dark parts and all. I believe the parts we were taught to hide are where our true gifts lie.
I’m currently writing from my couch while Lady naps beside me 🐕 she’s feeling it, too.
I’ve slowed down a lot since the full moon in Capricorn two weeks ago, spending time in reflection—if I’m being honest, most of that time was spent binging Netflix series and doomscrolling.
It has felt as though my body is letting go of the need to push, and part of letting go is allowing space for myself to just be without feeling guilty about not being “productive.”
It’s almost as if my physical body can’t keep up, and I have no choice but to listen to her.
I was set to start my second round of the Emotionally Empowered Group Program yesterday, but I stopped promoting it because it didn’t feel like the right time. I’ve also been planning a new group program, and the planning has also slowed down while I tend to my foundation.
Today’s new moon in Cancer is the rose between two thorns—a coming home, a nurturing of our hearts. This new moon is placed gently between two full moons in Capricorn (this doesn’t happen often), which speaks to the need for us to connect with our heart before we continue climbing the mountain.
Lean into the soft waters of Cancer, let go of your shield for a moment and just be. Let your heart open like the petals of a rose and savour the sweet scent of life itself.
Here’s the post from the last full moon:
Since then, Saturn and Neptune have both pressed rewind by stationing retrograde; which amplifies the need to slow down, recalibrate, and connect to our intuition and integrity. We get another chance to reflect on why we’re here—on this earth and on this specific path we’ve chosen to walk.
Is the path still in alignment or are you just pushing through the pain?
Saturn and Neptune are hanging out in my 10th house of career, so that explains why I’m feeling a slow down in my work as I check back in with how everything feels as my business continues to grow. My nervous system has been levelling up as I reach new levels, and I only want to move at the speed in which it can handle.
New moons are a time where the sky is dark, and as we humans mimic the natural rhythms of the universe, it’s a great time to do the same by going within.
Turning down the lights, slowing our bodies down, feeling into the sensation and wisdom our body has to offer.
While Cancer is a water sign, it’s also a cardinal sign—it’s action oriented. I often think of her as the mom who would do anything for her babies. It’s the host of the party who makes sure everyone is taken care of, bellies full, and hearts even fuller.
I think of my Cancer aunt who hosted family Christmas gatherings every year when I was a kid. It was my favourite time of the year because it felt like home. She is still the one who always makes sure to have a meal on the stove when she knows you’re coming.
This new moon is at odds with the nodes of the moon, triggering the lessons we’ve been learning through the eclipse portals. For the past year, we’ve been finding the balance between self and the other. This energy is highlighted today. Situations may pop up to remind you of the work you’ve been doing towards building healthier relationships with others and yourself.
Opening the Cancerian waters brings risk because it’s vulnerable. The crab moults and releases its shell, exposed to danger, but without moulting it would never grow. It’s necessary to open the waters, to feel it all, and to let it go.
How can I embrace vulnerability in the name of growth?
How can I ensure my boundaries are solid, but not so tight that I cut off the supply to my heart?
What seeds need to be planted today in order to grow in alignment with my heart-led values?
If you’re feeling emotional, let the waters flow. Be honest with yourself, and allow any healing that needs to take place. This new moon is also challenging our inner wound—for me, it’s been bringing up my feelings of loneliness and questions of where home truly is for me.
As an expat who has just gone through a breakup, it has been hard. These are the moments I crave a true sense of home. I’ve recognized how weak my support system is. Since sobriety, the connections I once had have fallen away naturally, encouraging the truest test of my values I’ve ever experienced. I’m learning how to keep my heart open through the grief and loss, breaking habits that once would’ve been easy to slip into.
I’m learning how to nurture my heart through the pain. I’m learning to mother the inner child who wants to be loved. I’m also learning to build my foundations and stay true to myself no matter, to see that childlike version of me, and to be there for her above all else.
Now is your opportunity to find your heart and lead from a place of integrity. It’s a time of evolution as your shell falls away, exposing the inner meat while trusting a new shell will come back, strong and with room for your growth.
It’s a fresh start.
What seeds are you planting under the dark sky?
Leave a comment and we will come back to it on the second full moon in Capricorn at the end of the month to see how it has flourished 🌱
Most importantly, remember to take some space this weekend to be with your body. Tap into what it needs and give it some love. We’re only human.
p.s. I’m hosting a free masterclass on July 10th (11th for those in Australasia) all about stepping into your soul-led self.
You will learn how to use your descendant (relationship point) to create a safe container for your rising sign (soul) to flourish. If you have trouble connecting to your rising sign, this one is for you! It’s also perfect for those who want to lean into healthy relationships with yourself and others.
I’d love for you to join me! Be sure to come live for a chance to have me look at your chart live-time! If you can’t make it live, register anyway and I’ll send you the recording.
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Of course the timing for me to read this is perfect, thank you Kaitlyn! I loved the affirmation of this essay. As of today I’m taking a break from the regular posting of my newsletter (this was not a spontaneous decision) and I will be doing what you suggested here, moving further inward to reflect what I’m going to put outward.
I appreciate this gentle nudge.
This resonates deeply with where my body, mind and soul are at in this moment. It's so easy to forget that it's not just us, we are moving with the energies of the cosmos. Very validating, thank you 🙏