Hi, I’m Kaitlyn 👋
I write about real life through the lens of astrology. My goal is to help as many people as possible learn to love themselves for who they are—dark parts and all. I believe the parts we were taught to hide are where our true gifts lie.
My focus is to inspire you to feel confident enough to shine without the fear, regardless of the expectations of others.
Sitting between eclipses can feel a bit like one door has closed behind us, as we wait in a hallway while the other door hasn’t yet opened. Eyes closed, wandering in the dark as we try one thing after another, until we surrender and settle in, waiting for the storm to pass so we can see the light.
The past month has me frozen—I drafted multiple posts, and none of them felt right to send out. It feels as though I’m in the in-between, reconfiguring who I am, and what I’m here for.
Here’s an excerpt from one of those posts that found its way to the graveyard:
I’ve noticed I’ve been stressing about getting words on the page before they’re ready to be shared because I’m trying to keep up with a timeline I’ve created in my mind—noticing it has been a while since I wrote, but who am I to decide when it happens? With the added timeline adds the added pressure, and suddenly I’m frozen in fear and more tense than my neck after sleeping the wrong way.
So here I am, showing up through the discomfort with something a little different than usual as I try to find my footing again.
Floods
In Northern Thailand, where I live, we’re still feeling the effects of Typhoon Yagi. For the past two mornings on my way to my usual café, I’ve noticed the parking lots to the banks full with people waiting for financial support—I’m assuming this is because they were victims of the water breaking the banks of the river.
The sense of community here is unmatched.
People have been donating food, water, brooms, garbage bags, and their time to help with the clean-up of sludge and debris. Those who were displaced take refuge in the temple or guesthouses that have opened their doors in the meantime. Local businesses have been offering services for free; phone repairs for water damages, appliance repairs, meals, and accommodations to name a few.
It has reminded me that while we can’t control the force of water, we can flow with it.
Faith
Eclipse season can be challenging for us of the mortal variety—it can be tough to take our hands off the wheel, to sit with our shadows, and to let go of how we think things should be.
The lunar eclipse last week highlighted the period of my life, eight years ago, when I quit my job and booked a one-way ticket to Australia. I’ve been moving through some grief around the heartbreak I experienced back then. Just as my career changed back then, I can feel similar shifts happening beneath the surface.
As I sipped my morning coffee, I completed the Wordle of the day; the word was “faith.” When that word came across my screen, my heart swelled as I sank into a feeling of presence and surrender, realising how much pressure I’ve been putting on myself.
I came home from my morning latte to pull some tarot cards for the day. I shuffled the deck and the Ace of Wands popped out as if it had something important to say. Not often do I let tarot determine my next steps, but today I held faith after seeing the fiery card of new beginnings and creativity. I instantly signed up for a course I’ve been on the fence about for months. My logical mind has been trying to talk me out of following my heart, but seeing the Ace of Wands helped me to step out of my own way and embrace the possibility that following my creative spark holds value, too.
The course is allllll about Venus things, which seems fitting for the current Libra season, and for this season of my life as I lean into style, pleasure, beauty, and connection; while simultaneously leaving hustle culture behind.1
As I put the deck away, I noticed the Queen of Coins sitting in the box, which I took to mean that taking the next step will be rewarding, even if it isn’t immediately apparent. You just need to trust and hold faith.
Friendly Faces
Later in the day after the news of the river banks breaking, I drove down to the mom and pop shop where I buy my dog’s food. The street was backed up with motorbikes and cars that were waiting to get through the road that had just dried up; just a few hours before, the whole market area was flooded.2
I grabbed a bag of food for Lady, and a couple of things for myself, as I realized if the waters were to rise again, we could very well be stranded at home with no food. When I got to the register, the owner greeted me with his usual welcoming smile and a quick jab at the situation when he asked “น้ำท่วมไหม” (nam tuam mai?) which translates to “Is there a flood?”
There’s something about this place that reminds me we’re only here for a short time, and even in a time of disaster there are smiles and light hearted jokes around.
He slipped a couple of little bananas in the bag for free, and that simple act of kindness shaped the rest of my day.
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More to come on the course as it begins to unfold. I’m excited to share what I learn with you because it has really helped me with my own journey of confidence and self-expression.
We were luckier than many villages, towns, and cities; the floods were pretty mild here compared to some other surrounding areas.
“Who I am, and what I’m here for.” questions keep returning to us over and over. There are moments of clarity and then life brings changes and challenges and we have to look inward again. I enjoyed reading your post. So human and relatable.
Kaitlyn, I've been thinking of you lately. Wondering how you and Lady are going. It always brings me joy to read your writing! Thank you for being you and for show up fully despite the discomfort. I resonate with everything you said, especially that frozen, viscous feeling. The eclipse season has been intense! Sending love and calm your way. Take care and stay safe in this wild season. 🩷